Do these people look excited, or what?
Today we had our class photo done. We all dressed up nicely, according to tradition (the ASN program has traditionally worn white, but thru the years when the nursing profession abandoned the starched whites, we moved to black and white), and met in the misty drizzle on the main campus. The school will hang this portrait in the hall along with all the other graduating classes, dating back to the early 1900s. Well, not THIS photo…. but the actual portrait where we all look very serious, very happy, and very…. NURSELIKE. 🙂
In just a little over a week, we will all be graduate nurses…. I can hardly believe it!
Of course, there is the NCLEX to worry about, but I’m going to put that giant dark cloud on the back burner for just a week or so and enjoy this time. It’s GRADUATION TIME!!!!
All nursing students get to this point eventually. If you are a student nurse, and you aren’t there yet – don’t worry, it’s coming. What is the inevitable plight of which I speak? The wall. That proverbial wall that you hit full force because you never saw it coming, and it knocks you flat on your ass. The last thing you want to do is stand up and run at it again. I hit that wall this week. I’m pretty sure I have permanent head injuries as a result….
Last week was our spring break. Let me tell you, it was glorious. I think that this has probably been the first break that we have had so far in my nursing career where I didn’t have something huge looming over me: a paper, a project, an exam. We had NOTHING waiting for us the week that we got back to class… so for an entire week I was able to completely let go of school. And let it go I did. I actually joked with my friends that I was off the “nursing clock”. For one week I walked away from medicine… and it was BRILLIANT. I can’t tell you all the ways that I needed that one week to myself. I caught up on all the TV shows that have been rotting away on my DVR, I went to the movies with my husband, I carted children to and from soccer and other activities with reckless abandon. It was wonderful.
Then reality hit. I had to go back. Dammit.
This week has been a struggle for me, I’ll be honest. I am over school. Remember when you were getting ready to graduate from high school and you had a diagnosed case of “senioritis”? Yeah, I’m there right now. I’m tired of the busy writing of “clinical reflections”, I’m tired of waking up at 5am for no pay, I’m tired of stressing out. We are far enough into the semester where we are actually starting to wrap up loose ends now. My last week of clinical was this week. We can see the end of the road. The final exam is starting to rear it’s ugly head.
This time of the year is the PITS. It’s so close to being over, but yet – it’s not. Actually, the hardest stuff is still waiting in the wings.
The hardest thing of all is to know that we are so so close to being done with all of this. I can SEE graduation…
There have even been a handful of moments this week where I have thought to myself: “WHY AM I DOING THIS TO MYSELF?”
There is only one possible solution to hitting the wall. You get up, you dust yourself off, and you climb over it. Dig your heels in and GET IT DONE.
I’ll be an RN soon, and then it will all be worth it. 🙂