I’ll be honest – this week when I walked into the hospital for the first time as an RN, I was terrified. It’s one of those things that doesn’t quite feel real, no matter how many times you repeat it over and over to yourself. I have been in the hospital so many times in the role of the Student… and now I’m the Nurse. I have officially bridged the gap.
I had a great first night, though. My fears were unfounded! But, the first night on the job came with a few harsh realities:
1) I have a lot left to learn. As a new nurse, I know a lot of theory and not a lot of real world FACT. 🙂 But it also became quickly apparent that I’ll get there. The more I work, the more comfortable I will be with my job.
2) Nursing = lots of paperwork. I think that might be one of the most daunting aspects of the job. Everything has a form, a place to be documented, a line to sign. It’s amazing to watch these nurses that have worked on the floor for years effortlessly fly thru it all.
At the end of my first shift though, one more thing became blazingly apparent:
I really love nursing. I really love pediatrics. I’m so blessed to have gotten in to this role, in this hospital… to learn and grow from awesome pediatric nurses.
If you read my blog from start to finish, you will notice one consistent theme. Pediatrics. When I started on this journey, pediatrics was so far off my radar it’s not even funny. If you talk to my classmates, many of them remember how much I dreaded my pediatric rotation. But then I stepped foot into the children’s hospital for my very first pediatric clinical…. and that was that. I couldn’t imagine doing anything else. I was bitten with the bug. When you are in school, you hear a lot about finding your “calling” – and you don’t really believe it until it happens to you. 🙂 After my pediatric rotation, I knew that it was what I wanted to do.
So I made it a goal.
Pediatrics was my second semester of nursing school. I did a lot of rotations and worked on a lot of different units. Nothing ever held a candle to pediatric nursing.
When the time came to make a decision about where I wanted to do my precepting, I didn’t hesitate. Peds. I wanted to work in peds. I was told that they school I attended didn’t often get many pediatric slots, but I was in line for one if it became available. I think around this time is where God really started to intervene in a powerful way. Things happened that I thought were mistakes, but in reality it was God paving the way for the career that I was called to do. I ended up precepting 12 hours nights with a wonderful nurse at the Children’s Hospital.
And I loved it.
I had some amazing experiences, and while I did a lot of watching and learning – I learned a LOT. It was the best time I have ever had WORKING. That’s a great feeling, when you don’t dread coming in to work. 🙂
The bad thing about having such an amazing precepting experience though, is that it spoils you. I couldn’t imagine going back to work with adults on the general med/surg floors. It just wasn’t a possibility. But I had heard all the horror stories…. new grads don’t get hired into specialties. New grads don’t get hired straight to units, they have to get in thru residency programs. But again, God paved the way!
Long story short, I accepted my “official” job offer tonite. I will be working in that same awesome hospital. I am blessed and humbled.
I am a pediatric nurse.